I had a relative die over the weekend, but I’ll still be picking a winner for the giveaway. It just might not get posted til early morning hours or sometime tomorrow. It may also be slow to ship out. Please bear with me.
"Scared and sacred are spelled with the same letters. Awful proceeds from the same root word as awesome. Terrify and terrific. Every negative experience holds the seed of transformation."
So, I don’t know why, but this morning I woke up early and sat at my desk listening to sad music, thinking about things from a very long time ago. I have this tendency still to sometimes be very rude in how I talk about the Christian faith. I’ve tried not to be for a long time, but sometimes it happens anyways.And I’ve always thought that it was because of horrible people I’ve had in my life that used the faith as a crutch for hatred.
But I realized today that that’s not it. It’s something way more personal, and maybe that’s why I still can’t let it go. My very first serious girlfriend was very Christian. We also lived in a small town in the South. Of course, this meant that we weren’t open with our relationship. There were those someday when we get out of here talks. There were always those kind of talks. But no one ever gets out of there.
Anyways, she always put her religion first which I could respect now even if I didn’t then. Her religion, as far as she knew, didn’t agree with what we had, so eventually she separated from me in a rather painful way. And, I think, I blamed God. I blamed the Christian God for losing her and for the things she said to me when she left.
I’ve had a grudge with the Christian God over a girl for more than a decade. And I think that’s where the animosity I can’t get rid of comes from. It’s a very strange thing to realize with absolutely no provocation. But, I guess realizing it is the first step to trying to overcome it.
Anonymous submitted: I was wondering when your giveaway ends? It was posted a while ago and I'm sorry if you've already said it ended, but I was just looking at the post and there's no end date listed
It’s 4/28. I forgot to add the end date to the original post and added it in a reblog. ^^;